My puppy love

Last night, I dreamed about my first girl friend, it is a wonderful dream of mine. Everybody in this world must have their first love, me too. Woman in my dream is my first love; I love her since I was just 8 year old at grade 2. The school is the place I first met her that made me want to come to school every day, not for study but for meet her. I cannot make my myself brave enough to have a conversation with her because when I see her and when my eyes and her eyes has met , my hand is shaked and my confidence is lower fastly , I can't do anything but just closed my eyes and walk away from her. I don't think my dream will come true; I can be her boy friend when I was 6 years older. At grade 8 is the happiest year of my life but in good news always have a bad news, she quits from the school because she has to prepare to go to study at England, I feel like my heart was broken. Before she goes to England she went to study at some international school in Bangkok, now I have about one year before she go to England. In that one year I can felt many thing in the school has changed , I don't meet her there every day like before just meet her once a week , I don't feel happy like before she go from school and I don't feel shake anymore. But at least I felt happy that when she came to school she came to meet me, I have more confidence to talk with her. We always go out to shopping together that was really fun and happy and one day I told her I love her , that makes me nervous she didn't say anything but I know what she gonna say , that's a woman. My happiness had end so fast, in May she asked me to be just friend, now I felt shocked again, I couldn't say anything just said "I wish you happy in the future". I don't know what to do and what to say , that is very bad for me , why don't I ask her not to leave, that time all I think is let her go to find someone who better than me , my love time is just 7 months. This is my true story, it happened 5 years ago and I still miss her although my love for her is lower than the past. Last night in my dream I dreamed that we are still love and we are so happy that made me smile but it just a dream , I don't believe we can love again because both me and her has our new girl friend and boy friend . In this time all I think is do the best I can to make my new girl friend happy and I'll never let her go.